Tiring

I had to help move my cousin from her apartment to her mom's (my aunt's) House.... It was an eventful day and we got a lot done....

I have been dealing with the kids that I am a nanny for and they are getting to be real jerks especially the oldest, Ashley (11). Who thinks she is her daddys little princess and can get away with murder... Perhaps she is right... Who knows....

I was reading a friends blog and he wrote: "I am seriously losing my mind. So much to do, so little time. Why is it that whenever you try to plan something out down to the last detail, nothing ever goes your way? It literally feels like its down right useless to plan out anything. Scrambled life and scambled love... are these the products of a distorted mind? distortion...the act of distorting... the quality or state of being distorted.... a product of distorting....as a... a lack of proportionality in an image resulting from defects in the optical system .... some sort of falsified reproduction of an audio or video signal caused by change in the wave form of the original signal..."

I so agree with him....

God is teaching me hard lessons and Im quite confussed on the whole subject matter and how He is going about teaching it to me... Some lessons you learn in life are hard lessons that stay with you to the end of time... guess this is one of those lessons.... grrr bah!

Whew!

I don't know if I want to hug or hit Jeana tonight. She came to 24 hour fitness to work out with me and it was an awesome workout. One of the most productive ones I've had in a while. She showed me a bunch of machines and what not that I should work on and it was great! But man do I hurt now.... LOL but its a good hurt so I'm not complaining, I hope she can start to work out with me more. It would be nice!

This day was good, although I don't really feel into Christ as much as I know I need to be, so I have to work on getting closer to him and learning how to really want to spend time with him... Poo, I don't like going down that road, its sometimes painful... But I know that Jesus went through a walk that was too painful to even imagine, so if he can do that then I certainly can go down this road to get to know him better and not be so reluctant about it.

I need to look to him for everything instead of giving into Satan and looking for a boy to look to.... hmmm, that might be a bit harder.... But ill work on it!

All Is well again,I think

Although Nathan left everything is alright. Friends are better than anything anyway. We will see what goes on from here and I am going to let God handle it from now on. I know this is short but I'm going to bed after a long day of working out and what not.... V-ball and the ice cream was amazing at church. Mmmm, gotta love that homemade ice cream!