love? Is it out there for me? who knows.....

Marriage and love is in the air. But why does it seem to come to me in every direction with everyone asking for advice but not hit me directly? I heard a song and its me, it talks about the girl wanting a big house and car and nice things but all she really wants is a man with a big heart to love her like nobody else does. I know Im young and I have my whole life ahead of me, but I really just want to find that one person I click with, doesnt even have to be love or anything yet, i just want someone that will be there to hug me when i feel bad or kiss my tears away when im sad. I want the happiness that i see with friends and soon to be husbands or the excitement of newlyweds... I really just want that person that i know deep down, He's the one! But i hate that everyone seems to come to me about love advice, i mean i love to help them, but it hurts that i cant have the same problems. I mean my problem is that im too scared to really love anyone again so scared that i throw myself into school and work and no one has been brave enough to see that it is a front and push themselves into the wall i have built to see that i really want to be loved!!!!! For now i will continue to surpress it and launch myself into another round of workaholic hours and non stop studying to get the grades that really dont matter in the end, but my diplomas will love me and i guess thats the love that i will get.