Things are so hard to think about right now, The direction I thought I wanted to go in life just doesn't seem like that is what I want anymore. I haven't been going to church lately, I only go on Sunday mornings but I feel so out of place there.... I don't know what is going on in my life anymore, I feel like I am running and running but not getting anywhere. I pray but I don't think it is from the heart anymore. I went to my bible study last night and the whole time I was thinking, man I just want to get out of here.... And I'm not one for lying over nothing but I went to the store yesterday and when my mom asked where I went I lied and said to the bank... I had no reason to lie but I did.... I don't know why... I have all these thoughts going through my head but its like the boxes to sort them have been turned upside down and thrown out because there isn't a way to sort them, I look back on my life and I feel like something is very wrong right now, I don't know what but I know there is something that isn't right, I don't have any interest in the things that I did before.... Talking on the phone for one, I don't have any interest anymore, my music I listen to, I was flipping through the channels on the radio and I stopped at 104.9 which is hip hop and rap, I used to hate ram but now I find myself tempted to change one of my set stations and set it for this new music I have been listening to, I asked for advice from a friend about what I should do about a friend that was pulling away from Christ and the advice I was give was this;"you should bring your friend into a circle of friends that you know would welcome your friend and then when your friend is around that group of Christian friends then your friend will get closer to god." but my friend's comeback to that is there hasn't been a group of friends that will stay by my friends side, the group of people I think my advice giving friend was Talking about have kind of just pulled away form my friend that has gone away from Christ. I know one of the people that has pulled away was supposed to keep up with accountability but that has stopped, no biggie because that's how life goes right?

I have always said friends are like seasons they come and go, some friends are only meant to teach you something and then they leave, others leave you with experiences and some stay to help you thought tough times. In any way friends come and go.... Guess right now they are going.... But a few have stayed.....

guess I have been rambling for a while, sorry for talking your ear off for whomever still reads this... If you have any advice for my friend leave it on the comments and ill make sure my friend gets it. Good night for now, I have to go look at condos tomorrow in conroe and study for a government test on the way up there! Fun huh?

~Danielle