Where are we going to end up? That is a question I struggle with everyday. I think to myself, how does god know where we are going to end up if we have our own choices?

Well I think I like this blog thing a lot more, but let this be a warning: I am going to be laying out all my feelings so if you think I might write about you then please don't read, I wont put names without telling you so you don't have to worry.

So I get a phone call today, its my friend from church, she starts off with, "have you done ur quiet time yet?" Who have you been hanging out with this weekend?"

I was like bah! I haven't done my quiet time and I was with some good and bad influencing people this weekend..... So after a long hard conversation we have concluded that we need accountability partners and she was going to be mine whether I liked it or not, (see why I like this blog thing now) I told her about the whole "do we really have a choice?" thing and we came to the realization that yes, God does know our beginning and end and where we are going to end up.

my theory was : if god knows our beginning and end then how do we have free choice? I mean, if he knew where we would end up then he must know our choices to get there right? WRONG boy were we wrong, I know see that yes god knows or beginning and where we are going to end up. We are going to end up back with him, the exact place where we started. The journey from the beginning to the end is up to us. Our choices and decisions are up to us and we have to make the best and wisest decision to get to the end. But if we were to mess up and make the wrong choice then we ask for forgiveness and help and we get back on the journey. The only thing that changes from our decisions is the time it takes for us to reach the end.

Isn't it amazing how one phone call can be the work of god is just an hour 30 mins and 43 seconds? And a huge confusion point be cleared? I'm so amazed and the things god has give us.

I was talking to a friend of mine on the PC and this is the conversation, my friend is FRIEND and I am ME

Friend what's going on your way?
ME just stuggling with being a role model
Friend what's going through your mind about that/.
Friend ?
ME I have all these parents come up to me and say that their kids are learning so much and looking up to me and following my walk and that I'm doing such a good job
Friend does that bother you?
ME and I think to myself, how can I be a role model if my walk isn't what I think it should be?
Friend what could you improve to make it better?
ME I need more quiet times, I need to lift things up to god, I need to be humbled, I need to be more giving
ME I need to follow without a word
ME but I cant
Friend follow w/o a word?
ME without a bad thought or comment
ME doing it willingly
Friend girl...Just you realizing that alone makes you a model
Friend do you think you can do these things?
Friend do you have a goal for them?
Friend is there anything you need me to help with
ME I don't know
Friend is that all that's really bothering you?
ME yeah, just confused about things...
Friend girl... I'm so serious when I say this, God is so going to help you with this. In the next few days, something is going to help you. I don't know exactly, but you will be conforted
Friend oops, comforted
Friend love ya girl and God is working in your life, please give him a lil time


How awesome is that, I know that I need to stop trying to be perfect and know that the things I do is the best that I can and that god is here to help, so now I need to read john 3 30 and Romans 1 12 for my quiet time.

Lord,

Thank you for showing me your ways tonight in all the great ways, also lord, help some of the people that are going through rough family times heal quickly and help the other people grow stronger in you. Help me to stay focused and lean to you and not worry as much. Lord thank you,

Amen